Saturday, March 20, 2010
At the Beginning.
心跳.
Whats happening?? What? When? Why? How? Where?
Fairytale.
Mr Good. Mr Nice.
Cheated.
I Dream.
Run.
王力宏.
Light of my life.
Waiting for someone to come save the day...
Brain poor brain, you must be so tired...
Hungry.
Taylor Swift.
Distant.
Joke or nightmare?
Days of William Tell Overture.
Dont you love it?
I hate this.
Lee Hom 爱错.
Bye.
Journey to the Past.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Been thinking quite a bit these days esp since I've officially graduated and umemployed. Thought maybe if I jot it down somewhere, it might help me with my thoughts. Mentally weighing the pros and cons of going home. There's nothing holding me back here though I came back with a hopeful heart. Yes wishfully dreaming for miracles to happen. There's nothing attracting me back home too, except for family and friends. Having said that, going home also means that I have to deal with family's pressure on me and other issues face-to-face. The constant naggings could potentially drive me crazy. I can escape all those if I am here. Sigh, I dont knowwwwww! I need Mr Genie to give me a job or solution quickly, so I wont be stuck in the middle. Hate my life now, waking up every morning to an empty house with nothing to look fwd to. The emptiness. That feeling is terrible! Well not that I'll look fwd to working life, but at least I am doing smthing and not wasting my life away. 2 mths passed since I came back. Been bumming arnd since then. I envy everyone else, why cant I be like them? When will my turn come?
This lifestyle is getting really tiring. I really think everything's not going well for me, argh!! Wish I could turn back time. 2008. All the exciting things, new places, new happenings, new beginnings, exciting things that made my heart skip a beat, made me smile in my slp :) I miss those :( Have to force and keep reminding myself not to think this way. Stop thinking and concentrate!
Let me run somewhere...
"Dear God, I pray for patience. And I want it right now!" Oren Arnold