Happy 20th Juen. known you for almost my whole life, 13-14 yrs?? goodness me, that's like really long ago. hmm..actually knew ur sis first, while you and my bro were in the same class. you and my bro used to cycle to sch den me and ur sis will cycle back. what a routine. i always enjoyed going to your houses to play (note the HOUSES, moved so many times). still remembered the pic up there?? chinese dance, arghhhh. how come you looked so tiny though u are only 1 yr younger than the rest of us?? hahaha. who would guess that the 4 of us are all here in melb now. you are like the little sis that i nv had. glad that i had you and ur sis here in melb when i first came, made transition easier. anyway you have a great day today!!
hols almost over. sad. went lib yest to try get started on my assignment. didnt do much work though. sigh. den watched Monster House. not a very gd movie. guess it might be scary for children. for adults, i think is a little boring. quite cliche.
went Royal Melbourne Show this afternoon. 3rd time for me during my 5 yrs here. nothing changed much i think. there was still the flying pigs we saw from 2 yrs ago. but they flew much faster this yr. haha. we walked arnd for abt an hr and sort of finshed. not sure how we managed to drag till evening. during the day, it was really hot. but it became freezing cold at night. so unbearable esp during the shows at night. stayed till the end to watch fireworks and some other stunts. we went around tasting samples after watching the pig show. some were very gd. ate till so full. after the melb show, we went Laska King to have dinner. our timings were very gd. caught the tram within 10 mins, reached there and the place haven closed (but it closed after a while), den after dinner, caught the tram immediately. what a smooth day or night i would say. cold cold night. lots of pics frm the Melb Showgrounds.
close up of our ice-cream with a scary face at the back. the guy in blue was giving away $100. those 2 guys were 2 of the few who went down to him, trying to get the money from him. the ppl were so funny, they did all sort of things to try get the money. in the end the $100 went to this guy who was throwing his little boy in the air. i think he said throwing, if i haven heard wrongly. hah.
monster truck flattening some cars. that truck was so noisy and huge.
diving pig. if you see very carefully, u can see the pig in the water. wrong timing. jason managed to get a gd pig, i mean pic. haha.
racing pigs. seriously cute. they run so fast with their short little legs.
pics taken while waiting for the pig show. had to entertain ourselves. we had 35 mins to kill. we were kiasu, wanted to get gd seats, so went there earlier.
me with yanyanyan. angle prob?? ;) i think not loh, at least not for her.
this is a very nice garden. next time my house will be juz like that too. muahaha...wishful thinking.
view of the rides. wanted to take some of the rides, but the ones we wanted to take were too ex. one of the rides cost $15 and the other $10. well, too bad.
nice grp pic of the girls. (except someone would say 'wrong angle' LOL!!)
shld start frm yest. had dinner with serene, grace, ts n benny. we erm....lost our way trying to get to our destination. but we got there in the end. was having doubts abt the place initially, but the food was really not bad. also haven gone out with them for such a long time.
everything seemed so far away, cant rem what happened in the day. haha. met with jess and lee-ean. we finally got to eat the japanese pancake ;p (ok, it's crêpe). it is really gd. the one at melb central, cant rem the name of the shop. miss talking to them. it's like a long time since the 3 of us last sat down, abt 1 mth ago.
my wk seemed packed. i am scared abt my assignments. still going so many places, wasting time and money, but it's alright, holidays must enjoy a bit.
thx chunfei and jess for being my support during placement.
strange, i cant post pics. oh well, too bad. where is my motivation??? "Motivation is not the same thing as enthusiasm, when you have no enthusiasm,when you are discouraged, when things look the bleakest, and you STILL take action towards your goal.....that's MOTIVATION." (quoted from yanyanyan). one wk of hols left. where did my holiday go?? oh...i had a nightmare abt placement. i dreamt tt i was back in that horrible place but it looked different. somehow i am in msia at my grandparents' hse. i dreamt abt my supervising teacher too. she wasnt exactly nice to me in the dream or rather......nightmare. we were walking back from OCF last night, i was just telling them that i had been having nightmares abt placement and i had another one again. i dreamt abt one of my fav child in the dream, that's a nice dream.
oh driving yest was gd. i finally managed to do a parallel park myself. my first time!! my driving instructor was telling juen that i am a nervous driver and prob will be one next time too!! what is this?? talking behind my back. luckily my dear hsemate helped me tell him that i am normally not like that. oh man, that is hilarious. that's the thing abt having the same driving instructor for all of us. things get passed arnd. i dont talk much to my instructor, but he will always talk to me abt the weather, hmm...maybe that's why he thinks i m nervous. i will lost my concentration if i talk, esp when he tends to talk and point out things to me. worse still right. sometimes i regret taking maunal instead of auto. it is very challenging with the changing of gears and control of the pedals. if the pedals are not controlled properly, the car will stall and it is embarassing if it is in the middle of the road. luckily it haven happened to me on the road yet. will i really be driving manual next time?? quick affirm me that manual is better!!
haven been able to slp in for a long time. have the chance now, but somehow placement screwed up my slping times. used to be able to slp till 11, but now i will wake up at 8+. tried to slp, but wake up a few mins ltr. stupid placement life. it's over, but it is still haunting me. i realised i used quite a lot of 'buts' in a few short sentences.
procastinating again. i am so lazy. will really start tml. watched a chick flick tonight - John Tucker must Die. well, it is not bad actually. funny. such a typical chick flick man...thought there would be more girls, but surprisingly the number of girls and guys were quite equal.
thanks friends for ur concerns!! feel so much better already. not going to dwell on it, cannot change anything also. -- 1509 was a super duper fake day. did not speak more than 10 sentences to supervisor. not that i mind, i m glad. dont feel like speaking to them. on the last day she had surface talk with me. what is this?? superficial. pissified, dont want to talk abt it anymore. jess, chunfei and i went for lunch at this place near our placement. the food was really gd. is pay as you wish type. shld go there again sometime. -- Susanti's 21st post. wanted to post more pics, but waiting for PPL to send me pics. den now i cant post, prob with blogger. well, some pics of food to share for the time being. we went st kilda to have lunch. went to this place called 'Beachcomber' (i think). it is just beside the beach. very nice place, both indoors and outdoors. the food was gd as well, but expensive. we wanted to stop at melb central, but all of us were so tired, that we didnt feel like moving, so went all the way to melb uni tram stop. so funny. but i think the tram driver was a little pissed coz when i when down, he closed the door on me!! ouch!!
Fish and Chips.
Seafood risotto. really yummy.
Steak. that piece of onion on the left (reddish thingy) looks slightly like a severed thumb, doesnt it?? heh.
sorry this post may sound really bad, but i cant help it.
1. did you get to know me as a person? NO. you treated me as only someone who is supposed to be doing what i am supposed to do. 2. did you try to know me as who i am? NO. 3. did u even know where i am from or smthing to tt extent? NO. i had to force tt onto you.
from the start i knew we cant click. i tried to be friendly to both of you when i met you the first time. but what was the response i got? cold stares. i am so disappointed. why cant you try to know me? i am not confident because this is not my own room, i cant do anything i like. i constantly have eyes all arnd me. i hate that feeling, but i know this cant be helped. it is all part of the requirement. there wasnt positive comments or feedbacks on how i was doing. you kept talking abt all the competencies, but are you doing these things as well? NO. i dont get a 'i think it went really well this morning' or a 'good job' or 'i really like the way you did this'. even if it is juz saying for the sake of saying, why cant you say it? it will boost my morale up. isnt this what you ppl always do? surface talk? i did not feel i had any support from you at all. i had to think of everything on my own. i feel intimidated by you all. why are you friendly to the children, but not towards me? skin colour, cultural difference? if you think this way, i only have 1 word to say 'HYPROCRITE'. do you understand what i am going thru at all? i know you are very smart, but are you seeing me as an individual? ok one last thing to say, you expect too much, i just cant meet your expectations. i so need a comfort right now.
AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! i juz hate it i juz hate it. 1 more day and it will be the end of it. why does she look so much into it? i hate it!!!!! cant she use her eyes to see?? why must she ask me to write it down?? everything will come to an end tml at exactly 4.30. feeling so inferior right now. very vulnerable. things happen for a reason. Lord thanks for sustaining me thru these wks, one last day to go.
Jay's latest album 依然范特西 is SO him. his style never changes. the fast songs are nice. his 2nd song '听妈妈的话' is not bad. still listening to the rest. still cant understand his songs without looking at the lyrics. the 4th song is weird. i think i dun like.
2 more days!! getting assessed tml. all 3 of us are getting assessed tml. all the best to us.
so tired again. 1 final wk. 5 more days. i will hang on. it will pass by very quickly. yes it will. i cant wait for the hols to come. -- i had an 'attachment' session with 1 parent yest. goodness, it was scary. i was juz babbling on and on abt it in front of someone who knows her stuff. this parent is also an educator. i feel so dumb in front of her. oh well..what an experience. it is also a gd thing to note tt my supervisor is nicer to me. well it was after the uni supervisor came in then she was nicer. 5 more days!! -- my family coming over in Dec. in exactly 3 mths. yeah!! i miss been arnd them. i called back juz now, my bro picked up the phone. he was so crappy...he is always trying to be funny. the last time he put on different accents and talked rubbish to me before passing the phone to my parents. haha. sometimes i really miss his stupid crappy-ness. friends ask me if i am close to my brothers. well, i am not at all close to my older bro. cant stand him, he is always pissing me off. but somehow when i am away from home, i will think tt our fights n arguments are childish. i haven been talking nicely to him for a long time now. maybe when both of us are older, we will learn how to be nice to each other. i am definitely closer to my younger bro. it depends on the definition of 'close'. i can depend on him on anything and everything, but we dun share much abt our lives. is that still considered close, i dunnoe. i always wanted a sister, or a younger sibling to play with. but i dun hv. my younger bro is only 1 yr younger, so not considered, haha. always wondering what would it be like to have sis instead of bro. well, i still love how my family turns out to be. i admire both my brothers for the talents they have that i dun have. my older bro is outspoken, he can hv friends from ages 5 - 90 and gd in music. my younger bro is very gd in studies. all 3 of us were in the same pri sch last time. they were famous ppl in the sch, but for different reasons. older one was known to give headaches to teachers, younger one was known to be smart. since my younger bro is so smart, i got him to help me during my O-Levels last time. now i will get him to proof-read my assignments. i cant stand it, he is smart. ok i love having brothers in the family. -- staying at home the whole day makes me reflect on things n thus the long entry. -- I DONT LIKE PRAC!!!
i became best friends with my supervising teacher!! that's y i am blogging. hmm...juz joking. well things are turning for the better, but still not fantastic. lots of room for improvement for relationship with supervising teacher. uni supervisor came today. she was in her own little world. talked to her for almost 1 hr, and in the end she misinterpreted what i said the whole time. tsk. ok lots of things to do. headache again, need to slp early tonight. thinking of next wk makes me happy. end of placement and we are going on excursion on 2 days, tue and fri!! last day and i dun hv to plan anything, happy happy!! sorry jess, u got to hv lunch urself next wk for 2 days. me n chunfei will think of you when we are outside. ciao~
HAPPY 21ST WANLI!! the newest recruited member of the pig family, pig butt (LOL ;D)
i rem the first time when i wished you was 8 yrs ago when we were in sec 1. i rem buying your gift while getting teachers' day gifts. i also rem writing something on the wrapping paper which your mum saw and called me up. rem?? hehe. wow, those memories are still so fresh in my mind. anyway have a fantastic day, ur present will arrive much later. sorry abt that, too busy with stupid placement.
one week of terror is finally over. the long awaited weekend is here and ending soon at the same time. it is very sad that my supervising teacher is not supportive and doesnt give me ideas on my plans. there is zero rapport =( really very sad. at least the children are very very nice. love them a lot. they will juz come up to you to give u cuddles. 2 more weeks 2 more weeks and everything will be over!!! i really cant wait. hopefully no parents will come for the parent program i implemented, hee..anyway lots of work to be done this weekend. uni supervisor will be coming in on tue. my routine everyday since placement is exactly the same. wake up at 7.30, reach the centre at 8.30 till 4.30+ by the time i reach home, rest, hv dinner, it is 7. do some work and try slp b4 12. need lots of slp to hv the energy to last the whole day. no life at all. is this how working life will be?? come back from work feeling all tired and no life?? so ppl dont complain abt uni and assignments, they are definitely better than working anytime.
i juz hate it when ppl arnd me think what we are studying are juz abt playing with kids and being a nanny. and when we go on placements, it is juz playing with children?? when we tell them we got to do plannings and everything, they will juz laugh it off, thinking there is nothing to plan at all. i absolutely hate it when ppl dont understand what we are going thru. there is no recognition for our effort. for one i know my mum used to think this way, and that i dont hv to come all the way to Aust to take up this degree, but at least i know she is supporting me now. i can quite confidently say that all my coursemates are going thru the same thing of having friends who think our course is very easy. i am glad i chose this course, coz i made great friends and learnt a lot throughout this 4 yrs. my uni life will end in a few mths =(
after placement yest, came back changed and went straight for OCF. our grp was preparing supper. we made wanton, so fun, haha..did not prepare BS at all, thought i could juz listen during the msg, unfortunately there was no msg. the funny thing was yest's passage was easy for me to follow thru. normally when i was preparing, i dont understand a lot of things, but when i dont prepare, it seems easier. hmm...does it mean i dont need to prepare next time?? heh. what i learnt from 2 Corinthians yest was 'what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal'. therefore focus on the unseen, all the 'sufferings' (esp placement at this pt of time) we are going thru now is only temporary, it will only strengthen us to be more like Christ. i will hang on to this beautiful verse to sustain me thru this period of time. this verse is the first nick i had when i first started using MSN. how meaningful =D
ok dont think there will be any post during the week, no time at all, unless i suddenly became best friends with my supervising teacher, LOL.