ahh...i suddenly feel very stress. my head feels like it is going to explode!! it is filled with so many things. i got a case officer handling my PR application. i am surpised it is this fast, i was thinking maybe i will only get a response in july or august. anyway she emailed me on 21st may and i have till june 18th to submit all outstanding documents. i checked email on 22nd, meaning i wasted 1 day. i wasted today going thru the documents. if eveything cant be done by then, they will consider the application with whatever documents they received from me previously. which means i wouldnt hv enough points yet. well...so i have to get things done ASAP, meaning no more procastinating if i still want to stay in aust. police check from spore takes abt 14 days to process, then plus sending mail back to spore and for them to send back, minus the weekends, it will arrive roughly around june 18th!!! getting very worried. i have till june 18th, if not i will be back home. home home. i will even go back earlier than serene. haha..aiyah..not supposed to be a laughing matter. time to be serious. will throw every other things aside for now, settle one thing first. arghhhhh....alright calm down, rem to breathe.
well on a lighter note, i rewarded myself by buying a iRiver. wanted to buy a new mp3 for a long time, since my previous one is faulty. so told myeslf if i earn more than certain amt i will get it. voila, a new iRiver. it is a good buy. quite worthed it for the price except it is the size of a handphone.
oh also thanks to all of you who emailed / called / MSNed / tagged me. feel so loved.
Spiderman3 down..still have got more to look forward to. Pirates3, Shrek3, Harry Potter5 (?). for now.. helped out with the babysitting job yest. 3 young boys, 2, 5 and 9. very nice family in a very humble house. went there, the boys were having dinner. after a while, the 2 yr old went to slp, leaving the 2 older boys to watch a movie. the 5 yr old fell asleep while watching. carried him to his bed. the 9 yr old one finished the movie and was abt to go to bed, but he was surfing thru the channels on TV and Pirates1 was on, so he watched. i joined him too. he knows a lot, very sensible boy. when his parents came back, he was still awake. it was really fun. the boys did not need anyone to take care of them, they just needed someone to be there. great boys. babysitting job is almost exactly like how i read in storybooks last time. i still rem the "babysitter's club" series. haha..well, i dont mind helping the family out. they are too nice. thank God for opportunities. new wk ahead again...look forward look forward look forward!!!
i think i need someone to knock me in the head real hard sometimes. sigh.
anyway i love the place where i worked for 2 days. the one where i had my placement. it is the ideal place for work. most children were great, colleagues were easy to get along. they thanked me for everything, praised that i was very neat. i get high hearing those, especially after a looooong day a work. a simple "thank you" makes my day. it gives me the feeling that they really enjoyed having you there and not just treating you as s***. i longed for this feeling when i was doing my placements, but i dont normally get good colleagues then. i had fun working there. the location is very gd as well. super convenient. if i ever get work there, i will thank God, jump up and down 50 times, smile till the sides of my mouth reach each ear, showing all my teeth, laugh for 2 whole days without stopping, grin at everyone i meet on the streets and say "you look great", call everyone in my handphone contact list and say hello. i will look forward to it everyday. BUT unfortunately they dont hv any positions available. i am already missing the kids. i want work there!!! there was a student from melb uni doing her first placement in my room. i rem how i hated placements. i saw my old self plus a bit of other things in her. not confident. shy. not knowing what to do. had to wait for instructions. eager to please. nervous, scared, not sure if things will run well. no idea how i score full marks for my first placement. the teachers must be super generous. everyone who graduated the same time as me are already following their dream, except me. what do i want exactly? before i slp each night, i have many thoughts running in my mind. everything ranging from short term goals to long term ones. short term like the things i want to do when i wake up in the morning. long term would be thinking abt maybe going back home to work instead of staying in melb. well, i guess away from home is a form of escapism. escaping from reality. escaping from relatives and friends of parents asking what i am doing now that i had graduated. even escaping from parents' eyes. i had many great ideas when i was still studying last time. i imgained (so naively) that i would have a job straight after graduating, then i will work for a few yrs, earn enough money (so that i wouldnt use parents' money) then get back to studying. maybe my most current idea is get back to studying if i get my PR. study what, i have no idea yet, maybe something related to my course, maybe something totally different like botany or zoology, haha. my future is bleak =( think the best thing to do now is to pray and put my trust in God.
alvina came to melb for a visit!! she is different from the last time. more matured. no more heeheehaha...a changed woman, =D
went for work today at one of the centres for my placements. so happy when i got work there. i was wondering if any of those children whom i saw last time are still there. i saw them when they were babies, so they would be abt 5 this yr. i saw a little boy in the room and i thought looked like one of those babies last time, checked in the book, saw the name, but realised was not the same boy. was disappointed. towards the end of the day, saw a few familiar faces. and they ARE those children i looked after 4 yrs ago!! of coz they dont rem me. 2 of them were my focus children (those i had to do observations on). the last time i saw them, they were still crawling and cant even walk yet, now they are big kids, can run arnd, speak so clearly, make friends. the feeling was 'wow', cant explain. it was as if they grew over night. maybe that's the same feeling as how those aunties would always say "wah...so big now already ah..." when they saw us once in a while. i recognise the little girl by her eyes. i rem her big and very innocent eyes. children do grow very fast, now i know.
watching Spiderman3 today. maybe this one is the best one out of the 3. not sure. it was too draggy though. that harry guy (james franco) is cute. very clean-shaven, nice smile, nice teeth, the type of guy i will like. heh.
hotmail is cool, they now have 2GB of storage space and dont know what features, haven looked thru. but chance upon this interesting mail which i received in the yr 2000. think some of you might hv received it before. i cant cut and paste here, so i hv to type everything out. i think i am too free. very long, but read and enjoy.
50 things abt singaporean teens (bearing in mind we WERE in our "teens" then ;p)
1. You grew up watching He-man, Transformers, Silver Hawk and Mickey Mouse. Not to forget Ninja Turtles and Smurfs. (hmm...yeah, transformers and ninja turtles i rem watching, but not the rest...still have got power rangers and captain planet, LOL) 2. You grew up brushing your teeth with a mug in Primary School during recess time. You will squat by a drain with all your classmates beside you, and brush your teeth with a coloured mug. The teachers said you must brush each side 10 times too. (yes!! we had to brush teeth once every wk after recess. we didnt hv to squat byt the drain, we had 2 rows of sinks) 3. Civics and Moral Education was Hao(3) Gong(1) Min(2). (used to like this subject, that's why now i am so civilised and moralised, =D) 4. You know what SBC stands for. (of coz...Singapore Broadcasting Cooperation, opps hope i am right) 5.You where there when the first chinese serial, The Awakening was shown on TV. (nope, i dont really rem that) 6. Internet?? What's that?? (i still rem when we were 11, a friend's bro had email address, i was like erm...whatever lah, i dont care. now we cant live without the internet. i only had my first email add in sec 2) 7. You find your friends with pagers and handphones cool in Secondary School. (so right. i thought they were so cool. i only started having a pager when i was 15, which was my older bro's) 8. SBS buses used to be non-airconditioned. The bus seats are made of wood and the cushion is red. The big red bell gives a lous Beep when pressed. There are colourful tickets for TIBS bus. The conductor will check for tickets using a machine which punches a hole in the ticket. (this one is very long ago already..maybe when i was 5, still in kinder that time) 9. Your favourite actors and actresses are Huang Wenyong and Xiang Yun. Next is Lee Nan-xing and Zoe Tay and the Aiyoyo woman. (nope...didnt have favourites, mum didnt allow us to watch too many shows, only get to watch when parents are out) 10. You've probably read Young Generation magazine. You know who's Vinny the little vampire and Acai the constable. (rolf, YG mag. love it...constable Acai, the moustache guy) 11. You were there when they first introduced MRT. You went for the first ride with your parents and you would kneel on the seat to view the scenery. (dont have....never been on the MRT when we were young) 12. Movie tickets used to be only $3.50. (serious?? my first movie was Opium War with family. super boring) 13. Girls are fascinated by Strawberry Shortcake and Barbie Dolls. (ok lah...have a lot of those, passed down from cousins when they came to SG from US) 14. You learn to laugh like the count in Sesame Street. (nooo...didnt get to watch much TV, deprived childhood) 15. You long to buy titbits called Kaka (20 cents per pack) and Ding Dang (50 cents per box), that had a toy in it, that changes every week. Not forgetting the 15 cents animal crackers and the ring pop, where the lollipop is the diamond on the ring. (yup love those nonsense) 16. All that you know abt Cantonese is from Hong Kong serial you watched in TV2. (didnt understand a single word of Canto, only seeing the ppl moving arnd) 17. Hardy Boys, Nancy Drew, The Three Investigators, Famous Five and Secret Seven are probably the thickest books you ever thought you have read. Even Sweet Valley High and Malory Towers. (agreed. loved the Famous Five, Secret Seven, Sweet Valley and Malory Towers. basically Enid Blyton's books. i used to think Enid Blyton was a guy :p) 18. Catching was the IN thing and Twist was the magic word. (haha...catching..played during PE, Twist was to pause?? cant rem) 19. Your English workbooks was made of some poor quality paper which was smooth and yellow. (dont have lah..our generation was the PETS worksheets/ textbooks, dont have yellow paper anymore) 20. CIDS was your best friend. (CIDS programs were the only shows we can watch openly at home. schools will play them too) 21. The only computer lessons in school involved funny pixellised characters in 16 colours walking abt trying to teach you maths. (yup, only computer programs were doing maths problems using those big big discs. still had to type in commands like "win". i was very slow with the problems, my partner who was sharing the comp with me always helped me with the answers.) 22. Water bottles were hung around your necks and a must wherever you go. (yah yah...had to have water bottles everywhere. we even gave water bottles as bday gifts) 23. Boys love to play soccer with small tennis balls in the basketball courts. (dont understand why they did that. then come into the classroom all sweaty) 24. Hopskotch, five stones, chateh and zero point were for boys and girls. (five stones and zero point were games to play after our PSLE) 25. Science was fun with balsam and angsana being the most important plants of our lives. (hahaha...yes, i was fascinated with the balsam fruit. squeeze and it will pop open. i was so excited to see we had balsam plants at our grandparents hse in msia) 26. Who can forget Ahmad, Bala, Sumei and John eternalised in our minds from the textbooks. Even Mr Willy. (of coz we wouldnt forget..names of the 4 races in SG) 27. You did stupid exercises like seal crawl and frog jumps. (yah, those rubbish exercises..PE lessons taken by our form teachers. they will threaten not to let us have PE if we were noisy) 28. Every children's day or national day you either get pins or pens with "Happy Children's Day 1993" or files with "Happy National Day 1994". (have lots of those, we have 3 sets of those things) 29. In primary six, you had to play buddy for younger children. (yah sort of..those little children idolised you, think you are so cool when we were like nerds with big big glasses) 30. Your form teacher taught you English, Maths and Science. (they teach every subject except mother tongue) 31. You went to school in slippers and a raincoat when it rained, and you will find a dry spot to sit down, dry your feet, and wear your dry warm socks and shoes. (quite true...if i had to go sch on the bike, but most of the time if it rained, dad will drive us to sch) 32. School dismissal time was normally around 1pm. (cant rem..think so...for morning sessions only..afternoon session, sch ends at 6.30?? then parents will be waiting in the canteen or gates) 33. There would be spelling tests and mental sums to do almost everyday. (there would be 10 words each wk and mental sums too. i rem memorising the word "restaurant", it was hard coz it's so long) 34. Your friends considered you lucky and rich if your parents give you $3 or more for pocket money. (well...i wasnt the lucky one. will only have $2 at the most and that includes lunch when we had remedial or ECA) 35. You freak out when the teacher tells you to line up according to height or hold hands with the corresponding boy or girl. (ok lah...not that bad..they dont ask us to hold hands when we were in upper pri. in lower pri, we dont know anything, so it's ok) 36. Handkerchiefs were a must for both genders. (yes yes...confess, i carry handkerchiefs till abt pri 4, mainly for drying hands, coz mum said dont dry on clothes or wet the floor with water dripping from hands) 37. Collecting notebooks and all kind of stationery was a popular thing. (i have loads of those, esp coloured pens. also very intrigued with pencil cases with gadget. press a button and something will open) 38. Autograph books were loaded with "Best Wishes", "Forget me Not", and small poems like "Birds fly high hard to catch. Friends like you, hard to forget". (yup, wrote those cheesy, crappy stuff, but it's fun reading back now) 39. Classroom monitors and prefects loved to say "You talk somemore I write your name ah." 40. There were at least 40 people in 1 class. (that's what i always do. i will even write down their names if i dont like them. LOL) 41. Large colourful bags were carried. (loved those different designs of those bags, esp big bags with double compartments. then became cool in pri 5 or 6, carried Outdoor bags) 42. You bought every single book to school, even though there was one thing called the timetable. (only in lower pri, coz scared teacher will scold or ask us to stand outside the door if didnt bring anything)
ok only 42, not 50, took out some useless and repetitive ones. the end, hope you all didnt fall asleep on your keyboards =p i wasted 3 hrs to do this.
survival of the fittest?? i never witness so many deaths in such a short period of time before. i dread going downstairs finding another one dead. but i think the last 2 seem strong enough to stay alive. shake sent an sms HAPPILY this morning to inform us that my 2nd angel fish is dead too. too much lah this girl, now she happy already, one more fish to join her shark yan 2. noticed that wan fish wasnt eating yest. the other 2 even more happy lah, can gloat over their survival. think shark yan and wan fish cannot stay with the other fishes. they rather die than to stay in a small tank. LOL!! yan fish will follow what the goldfish is doing. when goldfish eats, yan fish will eat too. goldfish stays at the same spot, yan fish stays. stupid or not?? anyway woke up at 7 this morning to wait for call again. waited till 7.45 and decided that they wouldnt call. just as i drifted back to slp, they called to ask if i can be at work at 8.45 at east melb. i asked where exactly the place is, they told me near chadstone shopping centre. obviously i cant get there is 50 mins. think the journey will take abt that long. so after hearing it is near chadstone, i had to reject it. after hanging up, i checked the melways. east melb is a little further than fitzroy, near victoria gdns. but still, dont think i can get there in time. so another boring day at home. sigh. stay at home, eat and get fat. boo.